Whenever you think that you are shielded from a psychotic
event due to non compliance you are wrong.
This is exactly what
happened.
All was going well,
my son was more sociable, he was far from the claws of psychosis and I was
letting my hair down.
But low and behold…. Lurking there in the darkness, our foe
was watching, waiting until opportunity presented itself … yet again
I knew all the pre- psychosis break symptoms, I knew them
all but it didn’t help from sending shivers down my spine a feeling of
vulnerability and helplessness invaded me when I saw it happen. I didn’t allow this feeling to take over, time was ticking and I declared
war against that pitiless intruder that plagued my son’s head again.
This is to all parents that may go through the same dilemma.
I didn’t allow to ask myself many questions. The why and how
didn’t take too much space from my plan. I knew I only had another ally in my crusade:
my son’s step father. Consequently I didn’t dwell too long on who or why others were not there to help us.
This ideal was long gone, faux- friends and family could
very well take a hike. I didn’t waste too much time on their inadequacy. We
didn’t need excuses; we needed action and a pro- active presence. Together we
started planning. This time we had to act promptly and there was no time to
waste.
Endless back and forth to my son’s room, trying over and
over again to break the barrier of his silence, talking louder than the voices
and replicating our messages with short
and repetitive sentences until we started
seeing a light of recognition in his eyes. We knew this bright light trying to peak through
and we took advantage digging deeper and
more often. Losing sleep and managing a 10hours work day, daily chores as well
as my son’s illness was not an easy job for an ordinary human being.
My message to parents in case of a relapse:
Keep your messages short and sweet. Repeat the same message
until your son/ daughter says: “ Stop, you keep repeating the same thing”. This
is how you know that you’ve scored your first goal, that you’re getting
somewhere. That’s the sign you’re yearning for: you’re getting closer to making sense in the chaotic world that resides in
your child’s head. Don’t stop… carry on… never let your hair down.
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